It is embarassing for me. Its clear I can't play football well anymore. I played goalkeeper and the goals scored can be saved by any S-League keeper.
As I stood between the posts and see my comrades in action, they had surpassed me completely. What memories we had since they were early teens are what keeps them, allowing them to play with me. But for how long? How can they be patient for so long? Look at Alex. Our best technical player. God knows how deep his patience is with Q-S.
His brothers David and Kang Xiang. Who are proud of Q-S achievements with TNP. Now TNP legacy is gone, only free in the mornings, how long will this past glories keep them befriending me? Shyong Ming and Wee Zheng, enjoying every Saturday listening to my jokes, enduring the shame of hanging around with me whom people call 'crazy', will we stay friends for life?
Nicholas was in the same boat as me. But he changes much better than me. He can play football well. Both of us do question do we have these illnesses, or there's a medical glitch somewhere?
Keith joined us through recommendation by Wee Zheng. I bet he remembers how good Q-S is as goalkeeper. But those were goalposts made by Uncle Ah San. In standard posts, Q-S is total crap.
Johan and Winston had followed us for quite some time. They may voice out on my inablities. But they are keeping it in check.
Uncle Ah San, who always have nice things to say about me, has brought us to upper level. But this level where I have to play goalkeeper in real posts, is too much for me. :(
Not to mention Uncle Justin who is the epitome of what is being patient.
People used to be proud of me, battling illness and able to work and play. But these sympathies are becoming thin.
Now I take orders at M, they say I don't smile, I am not friendly to customers and colleagues and I'm slow. If last time people say I'm handsome, now they say my face is like shit.
I just smile and try not to hurt people's feelings even if they hurt me.
For the match today, we lost 8-7.
PS My right boot there's a tear. Should I buy new boots or give up playing?
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